Mr Seb B.Eng. MIEE (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} mrseb) wrote,@ 2008-05-05 00:25:00 |
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Memories and recall.
So, for as long as I can remember, I've had very vivid memories. My recall is almost perfect for my contemporary life (I guess about 10 years or so.)
I can recall almost any instant, of any day; any experience, pleasant or otherwise.
Now this is obviously a blessing, but a bit of a curse. Not a day goes by when I don't remember, in graphic, minute detail having sex with an ex-girlfriend. Now this is a pretty good thing when you are bored, or you are travelling somewhere. Reliving the exultation of standing under a waterfall in Yosemite is pretty cool. Feeling the water on my skin, the intense freshness and deafening noise -- it's really like being there again.
Anyway, this weekend I was down in Southampton, seeing friends from university (there was actually an Alumni weekend at Essex which I didn't know about, which I probably should have gone to... but hey...). I drink a lot of coffee, and coke, when I'm with Adam. Now the problem is always on the first night, when they go to bed early (compared to my schedule), and I attempt to fall asleep. The caffeine is still coursing through my veins. My mind is waaay too alert. I can't possibly fall asleep. So right there and then, in about an hour, I relive almost the entirity of last year, with the main focus of my mind's eye being on the year-long relationship that I had with the girl that stole my heart, and 1 or 2 dreams that I was nurturing.
Reliving each and every intimate moment, minute by minute, kiss by kiss, conversation by conversation, snuggle by snuggle. I wonder just how many of those little, lovely moments I would consider as being my favourite moments ever. Quite a few I think.
That was an experience. And one I think I will enjoy repeating until I die. Or perhaps until another girl steals my heart.
It's my birthday next week, by the by... 24! Gosh.
So, for as long as I can remember, I've had very vivid memories. My recall is almost perfect for my contemporary life (I guess about 10 years or so.)
I can recall almost any instant, of any day; any experience, pleasant or otherwise.
Now this is obviously a blessing, but a bit of a curse. Not a day goes by when I don't remember, in graphic, minute detail having sex with an ex-girlfriend. Now this is a pretty good thing when you are bored, or you are travelling somewhere. Reliving the exultation of standing under a waterfall in Yosemite is pretty cool. Feeling the water on my skin, the intense freshness and deafening noise -- it's really like being there again.
Anyway, this weekend I was down in Southampton, seeing friends from university (there was actually an Alumni weekend at Essex which I didn't know about, which I probably should have gone to... but hey...). I drink a lot of coffee, and coke, when I'm with Adam. Now the problem is always on the first night, when they go to bed early (compared to my schedule), and I attempt to fall asleep. The caffeine is still coursing through my veins. My mind is waaay too alert. I can't possibly fall asleep. So right there and then, in about an hour, I relive almost the entirity of last year, with the main focus of my mind's eye being on the year-long relationship that I had with the girl that stole my heart, and 1 or 2 dreams that I was nurturing.
Reliving each and every intimate moment, minute by minute, kiss by kiss, conversation by conversation, snuggle by snuggle. I wonder just how many of those little, lovely moments I would consider as being my favourite moments ever. Quite a few I think.
That was an experience. And one I think I will enjoy repeating until I die. Or perhaps until another girl steals my heart.
It's my birthday next week, by the by... 24! Gosh.
